Oh wow! I just stopped by, bored waiting for my boyfriend who'll take me to the station, and I find three comments. Haven't expected that, but I'm pleased! :)
As I promised myself when I started this blog I'll reply to everyone!
Thanks, Angela, for posting this comment on the first entry. It's not the rule that "anti-Ana's" post comments including their name! As you may read I'm already suffering for 7 years so not "letting it get to me" isn't that easy as it may seems. The ED is not only a "diet". Unfortunately it's a lot more! Rather it is: beeing obsessed, beeing insecure, beeing alone with myself and above all: beeing ill. Put simply: it is an addiction!
If I COULD, I'd love to "try to be slender and healthy", but it isn't that easy...
You're right, I'm young. And maybe I can recover, I wont deny that... but you have to pay attention to the term of beei'ng ill...
Those years won't make it easier!
Nevertheless: thank you so much for feeling for me!
Yes, I'm german, Elegant! Thanks for the comment, I'll visit your blog too! Maybe before going to Berlin, depends on how long my boyfriend stays at work! ;)
Imperfections, be sure: there are lots of beautiful pic following!
Back to th day!
Went home frome school just 2 hours ago! The last transactions before getting on the train to our beautiful capital! I'm so looking forward to that! <3 style="font-weight: bold;">W: 49.2kg (19.71BMI)
I: 1 salad (200); 1 little wrap (187); 1,5l water (0)
Now I'm waiting for my boyfriend to come home. He'll take me to the station where I'll meet my friend!
Hope you're still following when I'm back in town - with beautiful pictures of the city and maybe new thinspos! ;)
Meanwhile: something beautiful!
Stay strong! XOXO
viel spass in berlin! freu mich drauf, wenn du mit tollen fotos zurückkommst und dir meinen blog anguckst :)
ReplyDeletesei stark, lass die dönerhauptstadt nicht dein schönes gewicht ruinieren.
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I know it's an addiction, since I also have anorexia and can't seem to kick it. I just would hate to see you still have at 30 or 35 or 44 (my age.) It wasn't meant to be an "anti-Ana" comment; it's just that you are young and have your whole life ahead of you (and I'm sure you've heard that stupid remark a million times, but I don't know what else to say anymore.)
ReplyDeleteYou know, I promised myself I wasn't going to do this again - post on a pro-ana blog with the hopes of maybe helping someone turn it around. It's becoming too triggering in my own recovery, which frankly sucks right now. And maybe that's why I have posted again - because I have failed at recovery and know so many others who have failed, too. I would love to find one blog post from someone out there saying she/he is recovered from anorexia or whatever and is living happily ever after. But I am a stupid dreamer.
I will always leave my name. I don't do anonymous; honesty is all I really have left of my former self.